Relationships are a Mirror, that reveal our relationship with ourself

While studying and meditating this morning I was thinking about how "our relationships with others, brings up our relationships with ourselves." 

I was thinking of the times when as a wife or mother or human being I begin to feel frustration, dread, disgust, out of control, resistant and annoyed at how life is going (because of others actions initially), and then the root of my suffering is stemming from a feeling that I may not be doing life "right". Self blame for others conditions and choices. I may feel like I am by a good wife. I am failing and not loving enough. Or that as a mom I am not as patient or attentive as I desire. And then when my disgust comes out at my little humans it is really a reaction to my views and relationship with myself. Immediately upon this reflection I had the inner knowing come up that basically said ...

"Kylie you are doing life "right" by continually returning to loving presence." 

"This presence is your home. Your center. Your true essence. It is me and all the holy beings who have amended." 

I desire to be more intentional and aware of how the treatment of other beings, is merely a reflection of the treatment of myself. 

I desire to have an attitude of unconditional, loving, compassionate, forgiving kindness for myself and all beings. 

I desire to living within the inner wells of flowing kindness and wellbeing. I desire to always return to love. 

"It dawned on me that those people triggered me because they mirrored parts of me that I don’t love, and by loving my triggers , I become more compassionate towards myself."

"I have to make peace with the idea that I cannot control how others see me; ultimately, I am only responsible for my perceptions and judgments, which I, invariably, project onto others. Why should they, or I, for that matter, suffer because of my unwillingness to face, and hold myself in lovingkindness? So, May I be Safe, May I be Healthy, May I be happy, May I be peaceful, and Live with ease."